I never thought i would feel like this..

Each time when the credits roll and the familiar narration concludes an episode of Greys,
i'll let out a satisfying sigh or go "awwww" in my head.
As much as it's just another american series but it never failed to touch me.

I've always wondered how it felt like to have someone holding on to u to thank you.
that u've done something so amazing for him/her/them.
the profound effect and impact u have left in their lives

the only narration i had for myself after the show ends would be..how great it would be if i could be the same.
but too bad, holding a scalpel is not my calling.

Too gory. Too bloody. Too cruel.

But today i felt that way.
And it's a truly amazing feeling.

All i want to say is..no matter what profession u venture into
Do not lose ur heart, compassion and love u have for whoever.
Because u'll never guess how much u have done for them.

It is truly rewarding.

I think i'm falling in love with this.

The perfect weekend

this morning i woke up feeling like any other working day
the 1st thing that came to my mind is what am i going to wear to work today
have i done my laundry to have fresh clothes to wear?
what am i going to have for breakfast?

and then at some point, i tried to remember what happened over the long weekend
it was only a couple of hrs ago and it felt so distant
it felt just like a dream i had the night before and nothing is real

i tried to remind myself the feelings i had
but i can seem to grasp what had happened

i thought perhaps a camera would do the job, but heck it's not with me

thank god, i got a little something for myself when i was away
something to prove i wasn't delusional.

and now..all it is is just a bunch of captured moments and memories.

I think i'll take it!

Yesterday was awesome!
But way too tiring.
I just do not want to talk at the end of the day.

The lion, dalmation, rabbit, sheep, batman, princesses, fairies, scooby-doo, etc
are the epitome of cuteness.

Eye-candies.

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There were a lot of hesitation on my part
I missed it once, i guess i'm going to take it this time.

And i'm really hoping i made the right choice.

Being at this junction, i now know what sacrifices lots of people made to be where they are.

 i'll be embarking on a journey with no turning back and perhaps would alter the blueprint of my life
hence it is really quite unsettling to begin with.

i've done my thinking and i'm sticking to it this time.

I'll just accept what life throws at me at this point

Hitting the sack

The fact is..i think i really hardly spend time at home.
My room is just like a hotel room where i just bunk for the night.
I spend more than 12 hrs outdoors almost everyday
which includes weekends btw.

And this gets even better
this week i wouldn't be even spending most of the nights at home.

Is this place a home?

I pondered.
and gave it lots of thought.

And i came to realize that perhaps it's not because i'm always up to something
maybe i just didn't like spending time at "home"
Facing 4 walls at night can be pretty depressing after a while.

Personal emotions aside.

Tomorrow will be a BIG day!
And i'm thrilled.
Looking forward to snap snap snap pictures!
Hope i won't get too carried away with picture taking till i forgot my work.

This weekend will be packed as well.
Going to the airport!

And tons of other things.

I'm feeling the exhaustion already.

Sweet memories

i've been keeping my itunes on the whole night even while i was sleeping these days
old habits die hard

i suddenly miss chinese radio station,
i miss familiar, old school chinese songs played randomly on the station

work is disconnecting me from my social circle
because i simply do not have enough energy towards the end of the day/week

been thinking a lot of future whereabouts
and often get tangled and too absorbed

loving what i do now
although it involves neverending routines
it's really quite scary how routines make everything zoom pass

looking forward to an exciting escapade
not that i've been approved yet but who cares

the misty wet weather is making me miss Genting/ Cameron
a trip back there would be nice

was and am still thinking of keeping a journal of daily happenings
as it does require some effort and some level of commitment